Sleeping Dogs
I wrote an earlier post about re-connecting with old friends and how satisfying it was. I would like to amend that. There are some people that I would love to re-connect with but either I, or they, or both of us were such fuck ups that we hurt each other far too deeply to ever be in the same orbit again. And that is a shame because part of the reason we hurt each other so badly is because we were so close and knew each other so well. Then there are some people who are still poison to me and I never want to see again. Then there are those who simply appear to have fallen off the face of the Earth. Please indulge me as I would just like to give a psychic shout out to some of these people:
Rose: I’m still not quite sure what I did to you besides not be the person you wanted me to be.
Linzi: Forgive me for being a pathological liar. I was very young and very insecure.
Ted: Forgive me for hurting Linzi and getting you caught up in my bullshit.
Laura: I often wonder about you. You were hell to work for but after we became friends it was different.
Gail: I don’t know where the hell you are and at one time I tried very hard to find you. I realize I abandoned you when you needed a friend.
Catherine: We were birds of a feather and I have faith that one of these days our paths will cross.
Marcia: You need to find an address you like and stick with it.
Robert: You were a complete user who fucked with me for far too long and you owe me a lot for helping you get rid of Emma.
Naz & Reino: After my coke ran out, so did you. But I can’t blame you for that.
Julie: We had 15 years together and I’m still angry. Maybe, just maybe in about 5-10 years I’ll try finding you.
Nathaniel: Freakishly, your life continues to intercept with mine. It’s amazing to me that we are still only 1 or 2 people apart from one another. I can’t decide whether that is a sign to keep away or to reach out. For now, I’ll keep away.
All of these people deserve an explanation and will get one here eventually. Jesus. Just reading this makes me feel a combination of cool and depressed. The scenes and shit I went through with these people…
Rose: I’m still not quite sure what I did to you besides not be the person you wanted me to be.
Linzi: Forgive me for being a pathological liar. I was very young and very insecure.
Ted: Forgive me for hurting Linzi and getting you caught up in my bullshit.
Laura: I often wonder about you. You were hell to work for but after we became friends it was different.
Gail: I don’t know where the hell you are and at one time I tried very hard to find you. I realize I abandoned you when you needed a friend.
Catherine: We were birds of a feather and I have faith that one of these days our paths will cross.
Marcia: You need to find an address you like and stick with it.
Robert: You were a complete user who fucked with me for far too long and you owe me a lot for helping you get rid of Emma.
Naz & Reino: After my coke ran out, so did you. But I can’t blame you for that.
Julie: We had 15 years together and I’m still angry. Maybe, just maybe in about 5-10 years I’ll try finding you.
Nathaniel: Freakishly, your life continues to intercept with mine. It’s amazing to me that we are still only 1 or 2 people apart from one another. I can’t decide whether that is a sign to keep away or to reach out. For now, I’ll keep away.
All of these people deserve an explanation and will get one here eventually. Jesus. Just reading this makes me feel a combination of cool and depressed. The scenes and shit I went through with these people…
posted by Bart at 11:20 PM
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