Weekend
I had a really nice long weekend.
This is my firts Spring/Summer in the house and my first time with a grill so every night I have been grilling. I'm enjoying watering and caring for the plants and flowers. I love these kick-ass powerful ACs I have which make the fake "central AC" of NYC apartments seem like swamp living.
The only thing that is getting me down are these allergies. 4 weeks of mild to severe discomfort. Right now my head is stuffed and my nose is running and I am coughing. When does this end? My first time ever with this reaction.
One of my best friends and her husband have a gray cloud over their lives. He's in his own business which has its ups and downs. She had a miscarriage a year ago. Then in the summer her parents dropped a Lifetime MOTW bombshell on her and told her that her father had been arrested at a public pool for performing oral sex on a guy. An underage guy. And oh yeah, the Feds took their computer because he is part of a larger sting operation on computer sex crimes. Then, a week ago, he got into a terrible car accident and broke his knees, his pelvis and assorted other things and has burns on his body from being dragged on the road. Maybe I will not complain about my allergies.
The people a few houses away from me have a pool. They have 4 kids including a tough little 16 or 17 year old with a body like an adult. The kind of adult I like to go out with. Anyway, he spent the day yesterday with his girlfriend frolicing in the pool and laying out. I tried not to look but I did a little, he's got nice tits, couldn't help myself. I'll keep trying not to look. His father's an asshole. He smokes, is fat and gruff and unfriendly. I'm the gay guy who set a price record for purchasing a house on this block and people react differently to that: Some are friendly with me and go out of there way to tell me about their gay cousin, etc. Some are borderline hostile because they don't like whatever I represent to them. And some are pragmatic and do not really care and are just happy because I am good for property values.
Whatever. People have had visceral reactions to me my entire life. I'm a leader and tend to take over and be bossy because I know I am right and most of the time I am. I hate being wrong but I will concede when I am. Some people let me lead and some people want to knock me down. I am confident and some people hate that. I like people who are smart. Or very good and sincere. Or very attractive. I like to fight but rarely do. I am very strong and love my body. I will not grow old gracefully, I will have issues with losing strength. I enjoy sex but rarely have had good sex. I am very intelligent and well read but play it down sometimes because you have to or else people hate you. My brother was a genius but a genius with a cocky attitude and he couldn't do the political thing at all. He has lived in the middle east for 15 years. I am calm. I think it is because I have been through a lot and am very good in a crisis. I used to want to be famous but I don't anymore. I think it's because I am more or less happy and people who want o be famous are looking for something to make them happy, looking for adoration. I trust in myself and people can trust me. If I say I'm going to do something, I do it. I finally feel a generation older than people in their teens to mid-20s. It does not bother me, I kind of like it, I feel liberated. I do not want a MySpace account. I think it's dumb that Debbie Harry has one. I was a fan for 30 years until I heard she had one. That's ridiculous. It's like Anderson Cooper wearing an A&F shirt on the cover of VF. Grow up. And come out of the closet publicly. Shit, he talks about everything else, why not talk about how he and Bill Hemmer used to fuck?
This is my firts Spring/Summer in the house and my first time with a grill so every night I have been grilling. I'm enjoying watering and caring for the plants and flowers. I love these kick-ass powerful ACs I have which make the fake "central AC" of NYC apartments seem like swamp living.
The only thing that is getting me down are these allergies. 4 weeks of mild to severe discomfort. Right now my head is stuffed and my nose is running and I am coughing. When does this end? My first time ever with this reaction.
One of my best friends and her husband have a gray cloud over their lives. He's in his own business which has its ups and downs. She had a miscarriage a year ago. Then in the summer her parents dropped a Lifetime MOTW bombshell on her and told her that her father had been arrested at a public pool for performing oral sex on a guy. An underage guy. And oh yeah, the Feds took their computer because he is part of a larger sting operation on computer sex crimes. Then, a week ago, he got into a terrible car accident and broke his knees, his pelvis and assorted other things and has burns on his body from being dragged on the road. Maybe I will not complain about my allergies.
The people a few houses away from me have a pool. They have 4 kids including a tough little 16 or 17 year old with a body like an adult. The kind of adult I like to go out with. Anyway, he spent the day yesterday with his girlfriend frolicing in the pool and laying out. I tried not to look but I did a little, he's got nice tits, couldn't help myself. I'll keep trying not to look. His father's an asshole. He smokes, is fat and gruff and unfriendly. I'm the gay guy who set a price record for purchasing a house on this block and people react differently to that: Some are friendly with me and go out of there way to tell me about their gay cousin, etc. Some are borderline hostile because they don't like whatever I represent to them. And some are pragmatic and do not really care and are just happy because I am good for property values.
Whatever. People have had visceral reactions to me my entire life. I'm a leader and tend to take over and be bossy because I know I am right and most of the time I am. I hate being wrong but I will concede when I am. Some people let me lead and some people want to knock me down. I am confident and some people hate that. I like people who are smart. Or very good and sincere. Or very attractive. I like to fight but rarely do. I am very strong and love my body. I will not grow old gracefully, I will have issues with losing strength. I enjoy sex but rarely have had good sex. I am very intelligent and well read but play it down sometimes because you have to or else people hate you. My brother was a genius but a genius with a cocky attitude and he couldn't do the political thing at all. He has lived in the middle east for 15 years. I am calm. I think it is because I have been through a lot and am very good in a crisis. I used to want to be famous but I don't anymore. I think it's because I am more or less happy and people who want o be famous are looking for something to make them happy, looking for adoration. I trust in myself and people can trust me. If I say I'm going to do something, I do it. I finally feel a generation older than people in their teens to mid-20s. It does not bother me, I kind of like it, I feel liberated. I do not want a MySpace account. I think it's dumb that Debbie Harry has one. I was a fan for 30 years until I heard she had one. That's ridiculous. It's like Anderson Cooper wearing an A&F shirt on the cover of VF. Grow up. And come out of the closet publicly. Shit, he talks about everything else, why not talk about how he and Bill Hemmer used to fuck?
posted by Bart at 9:47 PM
4 Comments:
great post Bart. I could read that to Helen Keller and she would be able to have a mental picture of you...later
Seems like speculation bout ol Andy is all over the place... poor guy, he must feel like he's 14 what with all this attention:
http://towleroad.typepad.com/towleroad/2006/06/anderson_cooper.html
And by the way, glad you've posted. I agree with your friend MI: you are a good writer. Keep doin it.
thanks fellas
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